A Lack of Assertiveness

I waited for an opportunity to appear while there was no chance to begin with
Judging proved to be the most difficult and I still can't understand
what the influence was What the motivation is Or what the feeling is
that underlies my curious and overindulgent mind
There isn't one There is no opportunity
Because it never actually existed

Maybe you're oblivious, Or perhaps I'm just naive
But I can't continue to feel like
there's a time for everything.
I've tried to see the potential,
but the color's quickly fading;
the intensity's dulling up,
and I can't stop this transformation
of a Brilliant Light
To a blend of apathy

Where is the hope
when hope is nowhere within sight?
I wanted an answer; I prayed for one,
but prayer's becoming the fault of my objective--
My initiative to move.
The color's quickly fading,
and the intensity's dulling up,
but there's no more time for change--
There is No more chance,
No more opportunity;
Only reality,
only the wonder
i'm to be stuck with,
while you go on...

and i stay left behind.