Scribbling on the Mead...

i was awestruck at your cleverly-devised wrinkles,
etched with penmanship that had only been so heartily abused within the last 20 years or so.

Nevertheless, your eyes tell me a story—
a sad story—
of pain and suffering in the graveyard hours of the
night shift,
so blatantly emphasized by your whining and crying and complaining that we hear all too often
to just plainly ignore.
Oh, don't you (can't you) see?
COACH bags are much too sumptuous for your frail bones:

arthritis, carpal tunnel, back cists, headaches, side aches, heart aches, sleep deprivation, mind renovation, the MRIs and the therapy...

but you still plead (with a smile!) to shop,
and to smile,
and to assure me that everything is downright FANTASTIC (with a capital "f-a-c-a-d-e").

the clockwork woman,
the clockwork woman.
please don't do this to yourself.

S'ya Lang

So small, so fragile,
You look past me with your squinted eyes,
Avoiding any form of eye contact.
Not only will you see me,
I will see you.

So large, so strong,
You stand firm with your gaze and pride,
Attempting to pick up, pack up and run
Away to your sanctuary
Which we once called “ours.”

So small, so strong,
Your heart beats incessantly,
As it has been for years and years gone by,
Longing for what seems to be the probable loss,
Longing for the possibility of gains.

So large, so fragile,
Your wall that guards your soul, thoughts and emotions,
Appropriately constructed by torn memories,
As it protects you from pain and anguish,
Shielding you from love and intimacy.

So small, so large,
Your image of perfection, promptness, and purity
Always campaigned by your example
Unintentionally deceiving your peers
Unexplainably blinding you.

So fragile, so strong,
Your merciless opinions and power of influence
Among those who adore but spite your demeanor
Broken by one word
Erected by one grunt.

So strong. So small. So fragile. So large.
You were that. That you were.
Always.

S’ya Lang. Ikaw lamang.

In the works.

So it's relatively small right now... but we'll get there. I just need to work some things through...

Hit me up at charplat11@gmail.com if you want to write :]. I'll need your e-mail address so I can send you an invite to be on author for this blog!

But if anyone has other suggestions for websites, forums, or blogs, let me know (if you don't like this current posting system)!

Edit

When you post something, you can choose to be anonymous... but this blog is really open and lax... kind of like a second Xanga. So feel free to submit any pieces or even just post a blog entry about something that's been on your mind. Comments are also encouraged :].

Sincerely,
Charmaine