Blessing in Disguise?

I don't know if I ever posted this here (probably did) but here's a repost. After such a great summer, with my life being so positive, I can remember the time when I first started noticing this "positive streak." It started just before summer, that's not to say bad things haven't happened since, but I think it's important to note that they roll off of me and I face adversity with a positive outlook now.

These thoughts in my mind

That scramble up my brain

Keep flowing through my cranium

But I dare not go insane.



The root of all evil

Comes from your decisions.

The choices you make

Result from your precisions.



Carefully measure,

Carefully decide.

These careful calculations

Make me just want to hide.



I find I'm torn

Between the present and the past.

My thought process expands,

But my heart comes in last.



This is a weird feeling,

Never experienced before.

When was the last time Attraction

Didn't end up with a whore?



What stimulates the mind

Is something that can't be touched.

It's something more real

And lets you walk without a crutch.



Hello regret,

You hit me to the core.

What other surprises are waiting

Like a trap in the floor?



The people I love

Don't know the half of it.

They're too busy stressing,

Falling into a mass dark pit.



Maybe I am too.

Maybe I stress more.

Maybe school, work, Liwanag, GL, writing, baseball, coaching, dancing singing, acting is too much.

Maybe I don't feel content, maybe I feel poor.



I like to be reminded

Of the things I've always had.

Gonna shout a throwback,
And "separate the good from the bad."



Gratification, humiliation

And even masturbation.

Are becoming even more of an indignation

Always leading me to temptation.



Community. Socializing.

YOU are my anti-drug.

It's funny how you can brighten my day

With something as simple as a hug.



You might think this is about you,

But really it's not.

It's getting closer to summer

And damn it's getting hot.



Follow your heart

And you'll never go wrong.

Sometimes I disagree

And break out into song.



La la la la laaaa,

Listen to me:

There's more than infatuation,

There's lovE with a capital "E."



It's more than what it starts out with,

The ending is what it will be.

lovE starts out slow,

But builds up to a capital "E."



Your love for God,

Is your best relationship.

There is nothing that can match that,

Because there is nothing that rhymes with relationship.



You are sacred.

Don't ever forget that.

Don't look in the mirror and think to yourself:

"Am I too fat?"



No one hates who you are,

Disappointment comes from within.

I never want to see you

In the bathroom ready to binge.



Struggles are so hard,

Flowing from my heart.

The mind and organ beat together.

Life would suck if they were apart.



I'm finding what I prioritize.

I'm finding what I like.

I feel like I'm maturing.

Traitorship would be a strike.



I know what makes me happy

But I don't know what to do.

Old habits die hard,

Accessing them would be strike two.



I'm a very clumsy person,

I've ran into a tree.

If I dropped people in my life,

That would be strike three.



This "poem" is already long

Let's try to add some jokes.

Be careful what you wish for,

You don't know how much this straightedge smokes.



Roses are red, violets are blue

Did you hear the one about Tennessee?

Because the only ten-i-see

Is YOU.



"Do you have a band-aid?

Because I'm cut!"

I said that in a club one night,

And got told to shut up.



My jokes may be corny.

My jokes may be whack,

But at least I'm not like Zack Efron,

The actor that does crack.



I love the movie Iron Man,

But does anyone know the song.

I've been stuck singing "IRON, IRON MAN, IRON IRON IRON MAN"

All day long.



Laughter is fun.

It's not something to defray.

If you're not laughing, is something wrong?

Let me be the one to brighten your day.



One more joke,

I swear that's it.

If I tell anything after that,

I won't mind getting hit.



A blonde walked into a bar.

She said "Ouch."



I'm sorry, that was lame,

But it was all I got.

Just smile for me baby,

Damn it's getting hot.