not quite.

truly, i don't know what my mind fabricates when it crochets this unfaulty image of you
quite so pristine, young, and even rock hard.
much less, i don't understand why it is this framework of you that i manage to see.
but there you were, in my weak jelly arms, your heart split into two.
your limbs splayed into disappointing directions, and your large eyes hidden beneath layers of crystalline tears.
it takes so much for you to release and unravel the binds.
in my illness and chill, you would brush the strands away from my flustered face
in the compounds of an empty apartment living room. look over and above from me, and watch me
flail in confusion from your incorrigible presence.
and you'd initiate the grounds that 'this is what happened', and proceed to flounder yourself
next to my blushing shoulder down to the bosom, when which i am thrown off, apart, and to start.
while i am on the floor recollecting my stability, i can't.
you had me at 'you are me', 'i am you.', and 'this is what i do.'
oh, the things i'd do to have a glimpse of you.
i know this isn't the best time for an entrance, and there may never be that opportunity to bask behind the curtains and play.
but certainly, there is a flash flood of interneural connections that we share
forbidden to one, and unthinkable to bare.
oh how i tremble and tread the pebble bridges of the public campus, dreaming of more and more
of me suffocating in the compartments of your chest as you grapple and hold me
but only for a brief yet playful moment of time.
and then your smile above me, with exposure to tracks and metallics that i happen to ignore, folds discretely to the shapes and wrinkles of your innocence and intoxicated air.
it is the spark of the hunt, the fakeness of a cold front, the idea that we are seriously being serious
that wills me to think the unimaginary facets of you.
we complete, we coincide, we c o l l i d e .
it's not so easy to hide the idea of our perfect fits if it's been the talk of the town.
you might as well ought to believe it
that it's a possibility, but unfortunately a possibility too difficult to suit.
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i dare continue myself to disclose these immensely impulsive desires i have for the youth of you,
and it is likewise not the same for sure, though fine with that i am.
i can not bare to contain myself while i sit here with the dim-ending thought of your soft lips brushing my unworthy cheeks.
and yet, i must entreat from the desires of which i seek.
for this other half of your blaze is an anti-seductive counter, that which fights to regulate our fingers and actions that attribute to wordless conversation.
so no matter, anti-seductress, you have my fullest support in this grandiose scheme of a soul captor.
i look to venture for his unending fountain of dreams and have it all for my own,
to pleasure myself and bask in the feelings of the moment.
but anti-seductress, that must not be and i fully consent to you.
have at me sheathes if i unsheathe my flaming heart.
my hard head won't have at him.
don't allow me.